Cycle 16, Day 14
This is the face of someone with a surgical date in ten days. I'm scheduled for laparoscopic surgery next Friday, the 28th. This also means that my chemotherapy appointment for tomorrow is cancled, and Cycle 16 might last around a month.
The point of this procedure is to determine if I'm a candidate for the full HIPEC surgery. If I make it by this hurdle, I should get a surgical date sometime this summer. If I don't, depending on the specific reason, that's it. No HIPEC. And HIPEC is the only way out.
Next up is a pre op appointment Thursday.
But, for now, I'm not going to think too much about all that. I bought some pastrami, good buns and my favourite sourkraut (and a case of Coke) to celebrate tonight. Maybe I'll even watch Cats, it's been over a year since I've seen it.
Cycle 9, Day 4
I had an appointment with the surgical oncology team at Mt Sinai this morning and the news is good: they agree that the CT scan results were positive and that we're still on track for the HIPEC surgical option.
I'm on cycle 9, and have three more cycles to go until another CT scan. If the surgical team likes my progress, I'll remain on chemotherapy for as many cycles as it takes to be scheduled for laparoscopic surgery, a major stepping stone on the way to the HIPEC surgery I hope for.
Right now my two biggest fears are that either I fall ill in my immunocompromised state, and miss treatments and get scheduling all screwed up (I've worries about my health more intrinsically, too, but they're not relevant here) and that the ongoing pandemic floods hospitals with patients, and elective surgeries like mine are cancled again. I don't even go through drive through's without an N95 mask on, so at least I'm doing my best to control what little I can.
From the comments
James Petrosky: I included some less positive stuff out of a need to tell a complete story, but this is genuinely good news. The surgical team is a lot more experienced at looking at the specific sort of cancer I have. The medical oncology team at the Royal Victoria Regional Health Centre is extremely skilled, but the way Ontario organizes cancer treatment means that the central institutions have the expertise. So it's confirmation of a thing that was itself confirmation of how I'm feeling, but also tremendously exciting and good news.
Just six to eight more weeks until the next update, which is hopefully more of the same.
James Petrosky: To rain down a bit again, nothing is guaranteed. I'm a good candidate for HIPEC, but that doesn't make it a sure thing. And the surgery itself isn't necessarily curative, and in the vast majority of cases gives the recipient extra time.
I'm choosing to focus on that small curative chance, but I never let myself forget that it's all up to the fates. It's the only way to stay emotionally level.