Cancer Selfies

Friday September 09, 2022

Monochromatic light

Today was not an easy day. I managed to get a few things on my todo list done, but spent most of the afternoon in bed sleeping. I'm tired and my mood is low. The feeling passes, but there's a strong temptation to dwell there.

A man with green hair laying with several Squishmallows

In the morning, before getting up

A man with green hair and a beard sits in a computer chair, his cheeks wet from tears

I've been crying a lot, and I have no intention of hiding that.

A man with hair that looks brown and shirt that looks yellow stands under a monochromatic street light

This photo looks sadder than it is, I found a low pressure sodium light and the monochromatic light was fun to play with. This shirt is blue, my hair is green

A man with hair that looks brown and shirt that looks yellow stands under a monochromatic street light

I really liked the sodium lamp, I have future plans for it

From the comments

James Petrosky: I did try and get a change of scenery to break the mood, but that truck was parked in my driveway blocking me in. After a decade of knowingly struggling with mental illness, I have a large toolbox for dealing with this sort of thing. But sometimes we're thwarted, and sometimes we fail, and that's okay. Thomasin, as always, is a delight and a help, and honestly filling my bed with cute soft toys had a much bigger positive effect than I would have thought.