I reflected on this on August 20, 2023
If your wondering how fast advertisements for nonsense natural remedies take over your feed, it's within hours (maybe quicker, I was at work and not paying full attention).
I've already blocked and reported a half dozen.
Right now I'm still in a position where I can laugh these off, block some scammers, and move on. If I start to break, someone please just point me at Science Based Medicine to set me straight again ❤️
This was written on September 4th, 2022
Two days earlier, all the information I learned on the 3rd was confirmed through additional testing. This was the day I started sharing much more widely. This was a very bad week. Thomasin, as always, was a great comfort
Friends, this is not going to be a happy post. I understand if you take a pass, just know that you're all important to me, you brighten and give colour to my life, and that I love you all.
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I've been diagnosed with cancer of the appendix. Its already spread to at least two other places. This is the source of the gut/abdominal/belly button pain I've been complaining about for a while. We've only suspected for just over two weeks. and only had it confirmed this week, so I don't know what the outlook is like, but I'm choosing to be hopeful.
Work friends, please keep this to yourselves. Work is the only place I can pretend things are normal right now and that is important to my mental health.
All friends, please don't tell me you're praying for me. That's often used as a passive aggressive threat towards atheists, and while I know you don't mean it that way, I'm already emotionally spent.
Again, you all mean the world to me, and the world is a better place having all you in it ❤
James Petrosky: But seriously though the Ontario heathcare system is deeply flawed, but once the full weight of it is behind you things move fast.
James Petrosky: And for American friends, the combo of public health care and good employer benefits means I'm not worried financially.
This was written on September 4th, 2022
Junk store fun
Holy crap CBD is a demon chemical that damns me to an unrestful sleep full of vivid and surreal dreams. I'll take seven.
James Petrosky: Maybe I'm just overdoing it? Who knows. Prerolls are weird and I have no idea what I'm doing (other than trying to reliably fall asleep and remain asleep until morning)
Amber: James Petrosky vaping? Smoking? Edible?
James Petrosky: Amber 0.35g prerolled joint, so smoking. Buying small numbers of prerolls is the easiest way for me to find what I like, so I can then get dried flower for the vaporizer. Sadly I can't have edibles right now because they dehydrate me and because of a health problem that has to be avoided (but the problem also makes sleep difficult so catch 22)
Amber: James Petrosky edibles are expensive! I can’t do preroll because of asthma. A portable vape is great cuz I know my exact temp; easy on my lungs. It’s amazing learning smoking has no control and can overheat the preroll. Best of luck! Big learning curve but worth it!
James Petrosky: Amber I've been doing higher THC stuff since 2020, including edibles, but changing life situations has rendered the high THC stuff a poor choice because of elevated paranoia risk (I think related to the same issue, but maybe related to the bipolar disorder or something else) and the edible dehydration issue is a non-starter.
Amber: James Petrosky I’m sorry to hear that. Cbd is a good option for you then. No high, but nice and mellow. I vape sour space candy when I feel anxious and it works like a charm to calm me down. There’s so many strains, it’s overwhelming!
James Petrosky: Amber yeah I tried two this week, one did nothing and this one (Black widdow I think) was too much. It's not pure CBD numbers because the first was higher, but the second also had a small but meaningful amount of THC in it. Anyways, the search continues
This was written on September 4th, 2022
The day after the appendix biopsy. The biopsy itself wasn't too bad, I generally take freezings well, but the position they had me in made my belly hurt in a way I didn't think pain could. 0/10.
This was written on September 4th, 2022
At home after work, biopsy of my appendix had been scheduled, but had not happened. Family and a few close friends know, but no one else.
This was written on September 4th, 2022
With my best gal, Bessie. Annie instinctively overcame her weird anxiety for me when I arrived, which was wonderful, but Bessie has always been this sort of delight for me ❤️
This was written on September 4th, 2022
A lot of new tests had been scheduled, I knew I was driving five hours to Elliott Lake the next day and was dreading it. I'd been planning this visit for months (it got changed up a bit because I got Covid-19, and then again the day before, because I no longer had the energy for big trips and now needed to be nearer an emergency room I didn't think Chapleau could provide)
This was written on September 4th, 2022
Big-Head-Tiny-Body comforts me after the worst phone call I've ever recieved
Guess who forgot they couldn't taste food and bought pizza to celebrate the long weekend?
This was written on September 4th, 2022
First day back after Covid-19, unaware of diagnoses yet
This week refuses to quit with the ups and downs
James Petrosky: (that means I passed my exam and am a licenced electrician as of today)
(also holy shit it wasn't even close, 89/100 with a pass mark of 70, that's at the extreme high end of what I was expecting)
Robert: James Petrosky have you ever considered that you’re good at certain things?
James Petrosky: Robert Ocasionally, I was reasonably sure I had passed but I also didn't sleep for the three or four nights prior and timed my meals wrong day of so I was loopy from low blood sugar by the end of it, so it wasn't super easy to judge the outcome
That's a positive.
I reflected on this on September 8, 2023
Super glad my body has decided that hunger is boring and unhelpful and instead goes all in on confusion and irritability
Gang, today I achieved a major life goal I didn't know I had until moments before achieving it: I honked at geese with a fork lift and had them honk back as they slowly waddled out of my way.